The weight has been lifted!!

This week has been a very LONG week. A few months ago I signed up to take a course for my Property & Casualty Insurance License. It was a three day course that is supposed to prepare you to take the licensing test. Now, in my head I figured that I would just go to the class during the day and resume with my normal life afterwards. Yeah right......that didn't happen.

The class started on Tuesday and was located in Radnor. I had to leave my house at 6:30am in order to drop off the baby, beat the traffic and get to the class on time. That meant I was up at 5:15am. All I can say...I was exhausted before the class even started. On top of getting up early, I didn't get home from the class until 6pm due to traffic. My goodness, that's a long day. Now, many people do that everyday, however I am not accustomed to such a long day and I'd like to keep it that way.

This went on for three days. On top of that, my day didn't end when I got home; rather the night was filled with studying. Now, this normally wouldn't be a big deal to most people, but my husband wasn't home at night due to prior obligations therefore I had to get a babysitter for my daughter. Again, not a big deal, but I missed her so much it hurt. She spent the whole night at my moms on tuesday and it just didn't feel right when I woke up on Wednesday morning and she wasn't there. I learned very quickly how much I hate being away from my family. They are my life and when I'm not with them, a part of me is missing.

Anyways, this whole schedule went on for three days. Yes, I missed Isabella and Phil the whole time and everynight before bed I'd pray that I would pass my test just so I could spend time with my family again.

So today I woke up at 6:30am and immediately started reviewin the information for the exam, which was scheduled at 11am in Philadelphia. Phil, bless his heart, took the day off and got up with the baby and even made me breakfast for the "big day." At 9am I was off. I was so scared the whole way...not just because this is an extremely hard test, but because I had to drive into Philadelphia, which I just don't do.

Well, it was time, I was placed in front of the computer to take my exam. I prayed the whole way through the test and 2 hours later, I hit the "done" button. (yes, I was shaking at this point). Now, I'm thinking ok I'll know what I got....but NO.....I had to take a stinking survey first. So annoying!!

Finally, my results showed. All I saw were numbers, but nothing was the information I was looking for. My heart started pounding. I could feel the heat in my face. Then I saw it....in the upper left hand corner of the screen. PASS It was the most beautiful word I've seen since I found out I was pregnant.

So now, I just have to get fingerprints and actually apply for my license, but the pressure is off and I can rest easy!

Thanks for all of you who prayed. The prayers were answered!

I think I can...I think I can...

Well...I finally mustered up the nerve to take my property and casualty insurance license exam. This exam is composed of approximately 200 of the hardest multiple choice questions you could possibly think of. So for me, someone who is not a good test taker, this test has DOOM written all over it. In addition, most people fail the first time they take the test..so needless to say, I am very intimidated.

Since it is our slow time at work, I have spent 8 hours a day studying my rear off. I take practice exams all day and drill the information into my head. On top of that, I will take a 3 day course which outlines the main sections of the exam next week all in hopes that I will pass the exam the first time.

This is worse than being back in school! I just don't understand how it is possible for someone to retain this amount of information. It's crazy! In fact, I find my self saying "I think I can...I think I can" just to make myself believe that there is a slight possibility that I will actually pass this thing.

So...let us all hope and pray that God has grace on me and allows me to pass, because I really don't want to take this exam twice.

A Lazy Sunday

For the first time in a long time, I actually got to take a nap! To most people, this may not seem to be a big deal, but to the mother of a 4 month old baby who is teething...it's the most WONDERFUL thing in the world! So.....needless to say, I'm feeling very well rested tonight, which is why I am able to take some time to write tonight.

I stayed up last night to watch the movie Taken with my husband. For those of you who have not seen it, it's a movie about a young girl who is kidnapped in Paris while on the phone with her father. She is sold into the world of sex trafficing and the movie is about the lengths that her father goes through to get her back. As a new mom, this movie was very hard for me to watch. I had a huge mix of emotions through the movie, but by the end, I was sobbing. Through the tears I asked my husband to promise that he would never let anything happen to our daughter.

I'm learning how to be a better mom each day, and even though I know I'll never be perfect, one thing I do know is that I love my daughter more than I knew was possible. The movie really made me realize just how amazing it is that your child can capture your heart within an instant and it's the most rewarding feeling in the world. The movie also really made me take a look at my life and realize what is important; family and friends. So, I spend each day as if it is my last..making sure each family member and friend knows just how much I love them. That's what people will remember. No one will remember that I paid the mortgage every month or did the laundry every week, but they will remember the love that I have for each and every one of them.

So, to my family and my closest of friends, I love you very much and am blessed to have you in my life. You help make me what I am today and I will be forever grateful.

Blogging

Last night I realized how far "behind the times" I was. So, I made the decision that it was time for me to blog. I always liked writing in high school and college, but for some reason got away from it. Hopefully this will be the start of a wonderful outlet for me.