In case you didn't get the first part, you can read it here.
I was very active in my church youth group when I was younger. The friends that I bonded with during those times are still the same friends I have today. Unfortunatley, some things that were said as "kids" get carried with you for the rest of your life.
It was the second week that Phil came to the bible study. Again, I had dance class, but this time, I made sure I looked a little more put together when I came home. (yes.....I made sure my makeup was fresh, I admit it.) Phil had come to bible study from class so he was riding his motorcycle, which I found to be extremely attractive. The only problem with this situation was that I knew Phil had not given his life to the Lord. Because of this, I kept my distance and tried very hard to hide the fact that I was liking him more and more each week.
One weekend, we all got together. We had a fun day barbequing at a friends house and we all decided to go see the Ice Age movie. (I think it was the first one) I remember driving in my car with two friends to the theatre and one of them said, "So, who do you think Phil likes?" We all decided it was the girl who brought him to the study. In my head I knew it was me, but seriously, who sits there and says "you are wrong...he's all about me!" Um...can we say conceded? Plus.....some hurtful things were said about me during those youth group days which killed my self-confidence even as an adult. (and yes....I still battle things even today) So....I went along with the prediction that was made and tried very hard not to think of things.
By the end of the night, we were all saying good bye and it came time for me to say good bye to Phil. He reached down and gave me a hug and I knew by the way he held me and by the way he looked at me that he wanted more than a friendship.
I had to take a few friends home that night and after they got out of the car and I was driving home, I remember screaming at the top of my lungs at God. (yes...crazy person I know....Thankfully it was 1am and there weren't too many people on the road to witness it) I told God that I didn't even want Phil to think about asking me out on a date until he had given his life to the Lord. I remember screaming "I won't go down that road again. I won't get hurt like that again. I'm happy just the way that I am. Please don't let him ask me out until he has given his life to you!" I remember crying because I didn't want my life to fall apart again.
The following day....he asked me out.
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