I've never been big on exercise. I know..terrible habit and bad example for my girls. Lately, however, with all the stress in my life and health issues I realized how much I need an outlet. I did have a time in my life (prior to marriage and children) where I went to the gym every morning before work. It was the best I felt in my life. I lost weight but overall felt really good about myself. Since kids...it's been a bit harder.
So..yesterday I did a workout with my 4 year old. I loved it! Although I couldn't do a lot of the workout due to hurting wrists, I felt like I was setting a great example for her. Today..on my lunch break, I took advantage of the free gym in my office building and I went down and hopped on the elipical for 25 minutes and ran 1.3 miles. Not much, but considering how out of shape I am..I'll say that wasn't bad. (I'll admit that I am very self consious about exercising in front of people and may or may not have cut my running short by 5 minutes due to two people chatting it up in the gym)
I also found out from my blog friend Kelly at Laugh Out Loud that if you download the runBsx app on your phone, they will dontate $10 if you run 26.2 miles by May 17th. So..after I ran my 1.3 miles, I downloaded the app and my goal is to raise $10 for someone. It's not a lot of money, but it may be just the motivation that I need to get myself moving.
Happy Running!!!
Apr 23, 2013
Apr 15, 2013
Lord, I'm Amazed
Yesterday I attended a beautiful wedding ceremony. The honor and glory given to the Lord was just amazing. This morning, as pandora played on my computer the song Amazed came on. It was truly a perfect song so I thought I would share and let everyone reflect on just how much God loves each of us. Just as many marriage vows promise to love in good times and bad..so does our Lord. He walks next to each of us and carries us when we just can't walk any longer.
At this point in my life..I know that I am being carried by my precious Jesus. I truly stand amazed at his love for me..in good times and in bad...even when I give up and say "I just can't do this any more!" My life shouldn't be about "me doing" anything. It should be about how the Lord is working in my life and how He is getting me thru the challenges of every day life.
So Lord..once again I stand amazed. Amazed at all you've done for me and all you continue to do for me...for walking with me every day..for healing my hurts one by one..for carrying me when I'm weak.
Amazed
At this point in my life..I know that I am being carried by my precious Jesus. I truly stand amazed at his love for me..in good times and in bad...even when I give up and say "I just can't do this any more!" My life shouldn't be about "me doing" anything. It should be about how the Lord is working in my life and how He is getting me thru the challenges of every day life.
So Lord..once again I stand amazed. Amazed at all you've done for me and all you continue to do for me...for walking with me every day..for healing my hurts one by one..for carrying me when I'm weak.
Amazed
Mar 20, 2013
Evaluation on Friends
Self evaluation is something I've been spending a lot of time on lately. I'm not particularly happy with areas of my life and am always trying to find ways to make myself better. One area that I've been thinking about lately (well more like for the past several years) is that I really don't know that I have anyone in my life that I would call a "true" friend.
Sure, I've had plenty of people that at one point or another I would consider friends, but the friendships never last and I am left feeling shattered; feeling like I give my all in a relationship but feeling that my all just isn't good enough for people to see beyond my faults (and lets face it..we all have faults.) Is that normal? Somehow I don't feel like it is.
When I was younger, I had a lot more confidence in myself, but over time I think that I have been holding onto things that people, who at one point were considered friends, have said to me and I have allowed their words to shape who I am. You know that whole saying "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." Yea right! Not in my world. Words "friends" have said to me have rocked me to the core and their words still repeat over and over in my head to this day, even though we are no longer "friends." And those words...hurt..deeply.
So..how do you get yourself over something that someone has said to you? Something that you know in your heart is not true. Is forgiveness the root of that? How do you move on with your life and stop expecting people to do their worst against you because of your fear of repeating the past? How do you trust that the working mother of two that you will meet tomorrow will be the nicest and best friend you will ever have?
Sure, I've had plenty of people that at one point or another I would consider friends, but the friendships never last and I am left feeling shattered; feeling like I give my all in a relationship but feeling that my all just isn't good enough for people to see beyond my faults (and lets face it..we all have faults.) Is that normal? Somehow I don't feel like it is.
When I was younger, I had a lot more confidence in myself, but over time I think that I have been holding onto things that people, who at one point were considered friends, have said to me and I have allowed their words to shape who I am. You know that whole saying "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." Yea right! Not in my world. Words "friends" have said to me have rocked me to the core and their words still repeat over and over in my head to this day, even though we are no longer "friends." And those words...hurt..deeply.
So..how do you get yourself over something that someone has said to you? Something that you know in your heart is not true. Is forgiveness the root of that? How do you move on with your life and stop expecting people to do their worst against you because of your fear of repeating the past? How do you trust that the working mother of two that you will meet tomorrow will be the nicest and best friend you will ever have?
Mar 12, 2013
G.E.R.D.
G.E.R.D - otherwise known as Gastroesophageal reflux disease. I have it...and it stinks. Basically..my stomach makes too much acid and that acid leaks back into my esophagus. (Acid reflux) The hard part is that I don't alway have burning in my throat, but mainly just feel like I'm going to throw up, all.the.time! Fun...I know.
Anyways...I've been told by my doctor that I may need to be placed on anxiety medication because the stress and anxiety of my current situation will make matters in my belly worse. Nice. (Ok..side note.....not only did I turn 30 this year..but with it..I had to get blood work done for the first time in my life..I have GERD and now I may need anxiety medicine? What the heck! 30's you are not starting off too well)
So..today I found a list of all the foods to avoid, and I now feel like I'm going to starve. According to Web MD I need to avoid the following:
But..in an attempt to make me better, I will take my prescription antacids (I now feel like I'm 90 years old) everyday and I will avoid these certain foods that will cause my belly to hurt. I'm hoping...praying that I don't drop too much weight...although I expect to. Most people would want to drop weight..but I am very, tiny to begin with and would feel I would look very unhealthy if I lost more weight. For my girls sake though, I need to. They deserve a mommy who can play with them instead of a mommy who feels horrible all the time and just wants to sit.
Any healthy tips are appreciated!
Anyways...I've been told by my doctor that I may need to be placed on anxiety medication because the stress and anxiety of my current situation will make matters in my belly worse. Nice. (Ok..side note.....not only did I turn 30 this year..but with it..I had to get blood work done for the first time in my life..I have GERD and now I may need anxiety medicine? What the heck! 30's you are not starting off too well)
So..today I found a list of all the foods to avoid, and I now feel like I'm going to starve. According to Web MD I need to avoid the following:
- Meats. Ground beef, marbled sirloin, chicken nugget-style, and chicken/buffalo wings.
- Fats, Oils & Sweets. Chocolate, regular corn and potato chips, high-fat butter cookies, brownies, doughnuts, creamy and oily salad dressings, fried or fatty food in general.
- Fruits, Vegetables & Juice. Orange juice, lemon, lemonade, grapefruit juice, cranberry juice, tomato, mashed potatoes, French fries, raw onion, potato salad.
- Other Beverages. Liquor, wine, coffee, and tea.
- Grains. Macaroni and cheese, spaghetti with marinara sauce.
- Dairy. Sour cream, milk shake, ice cream, regular cottage cheese.
But..in an attempt to make me better, I will take my prescription antacids (I now feel like I'm 90 years old) everyday and I will avoid these certain foods that will cause my belly to hurt. I'm hoping...praying that I don't drop too much weight...although I expect to. Most people would want to drop weight..but I am very, tiny to begin with and would feel I would look very unhealthy if I lost more weight. For my girls sake though, I need to. They deserve a mommy who can play with them instead of a mommy who feels horrible all the time and just wants to sit.
Any healthy tips are appreciated!
Mar 11, 2013
Today is a day....
Matthew 11:30 - "For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." (ESV)
Today is a day when I feel like a complete failure at everything I do. I failed with my kids before 6:30am, I failed as a wife by complaining to my husband by 6:45am, I failed as an employee by making someone else upset by my actions and lets face it...wishing I didn't even have to come into this place. It's a day where I wonder why the heck God would even put me on this earth if all I do is let people down.
The irony in this is that last night I was just explaining to my husband that I don't trust people. I have been hurt by so many people in my life that I tend to automatically think the worst in every situation. I feel like I've been let down and today...I'm being tested. Today...I feel like I'm the one letting everyone down.
I have so much on my shoulders right now. With my husband in night school, the responsibility of keeping up with the house and kids are left to me...just me. And I'm a bit OCD when it comes to my home...it MUST be spotless...all.the.time. (talk about unnecessary self-inflicted pressure)
Today is a day where I feel like I can't hold myself up; where I realize that I just can't do it on my own, no matter how strong I am.
Today is a day when I just want to go back to bed.
BUT
Today is a day that I WILL lean on Jesus for His yoke is easy and His burden is light. HE is strong enough to carry me through this day and all the responsbility that comes with it and the days to come. HE is strong enough to get me through feeding two small kids after a long day at work. HE is strong enough to make sure they are bathed and cleaned and tucked into bed safely. HE is strong enough to help me pack lunches and fold the load of lanudry in the dryer. HE will carry me through the next year...day by day..hour by hour..minute by minute. HE will find simple ways to make me laugh when I just want to cry.
Today is a day...that I will choose to surrender to Him! I will choose to trust Him! Because lets face it...HE, my wonderful Lord, will never let me down.
Today is a day when I feel like a complete failure at everything I do. I failed with my kids before 6:30am, I failed as a wife by complaining to my husband by 6:45am, I failed as an employee by making someone else upset by my actions and lets face it...wishing I didn't even have to come into this place. It's a day where I wonder why the heck God would even put me on this earth if all I do is let people down.
The irony in this is that last night I was just explaining to my husband that I don't trust people. I have been hurt by so many people in my life that I tend to automatically think the worst in every situation. I feel like I've been let down and today...I'm being tested. Today...I feel like I'm the one letting everyone down.
I have so much on my shoulders right now. With my husband in night school, the responsibility of keeping up with the house and kids are left to me...just me. And I'm a bit OCD when it comes to my home...it MUST be spotless...all.the.time. (talk about unnecessary self-inflicted pressure)
Today is a day where I feel like I can't hold myself up; where I realize that I just can't do it on my own, no matter how strong I am.
Today is a day when I just want to go back to bed.
BUT
Today is a day that I WILL lean on Jesus for His yoke is easy and His burden is light. HE is strong enough to carry me through this day and all the responsbility that comes with it and the days to come. HE is strong enough to get me through feeding two small kids after a long day at work. HE is strong enough to make sure they are bathed and cleaned and tucked into bed safely. HE is strong enough to help me pack lunches and fold the load of lanudry in the dryer. HE will carry me through the next year...day by day..hour by hour..minute by minute. HE will find simple ways to make me laugh when I just want to cry.
Today is a day...that I will choose to surrender to Him! I will choose to trust Him! Because lets face it...HE, my wonderful Lord, will never let me down.
Feb 25, 2013
Confessions from a mama with a 4 year old...girl.
I'll confess...I'm struggling. I work full time and my hubby works during the day and goes to school at night...so Monday through Thursday...this mama is basically alone with the kiddos. So...I'm going to start writing...in hopes that I will give me an outlet to relieve some stress.
My day starts at 5:30 when my hubby leaves for work and I get up to get showered. I get my oldest up at 6:15 to start getting ready for the day and by 7..I'm screaming because I have to leave for work and she is still sitting there while my 17 month old daughter is glued to me drinking her bottle. (I may laugh at this scene one day...but right now..it's not funny)
After work..it's pick the kiddos up get them home, feed them, bathe them, get them to bed and then make lunches, iron clothes, clean up the mess that was created in the 2 hours that we were home for and eventually...around 9 crawl into bed out of exhaustion. There is time for exercise...but honestly I don't do it because I'm just too blasted tired. So..on top of everything...I feel fat (even though I am far from it) and lazy.
My 4 year old is a good kid. She is...honestly. BUT...she tries my patience and pushes every single limit that there is. I feel like my brain is going to explode from screaming in the mornings just to get out of the door. No matter what I do...she just doesn't want to do what I ask.
It's me...I know it is. Daddy doesn't have these issues when he is around. (And of course having daddy tell me that it's partially my fault just makes me angry) The mother daughter relationship can be great...and it can be horrible. She will be fine all day long for other people...I walk in the door and it's instant melt down before I even speak two words.
So my question is how.in.the.heck do you get a 4 year old to obey? Because this mama is going to commit herself to an institution if something doesn't change...fast. (just kidding...but seriously..we do need some adjustments in our home now that daddy isn't around much) How...can I make my life any easier...or more organized.
My day starts at 5:30 when my hubby leaves for work and I get up to get showered. I get my oldest up at 6:15 to start getting ready for the day and by 7..I'm screaming because I have to leave for work and she is still sitting there while my 17 month old daughter is glued to me drinking her bottle. (I may laugh at this scene one day...but right now..it's not funny)
After work..it's pick the kiddos up get them home, feed them, bathe them, get them to bed and then make lunches, iron clothes, clean up the mess that was created in the 2 hours that we were home for and eventually...around 9 crawl into bed out of exhaustion. There is time for exercise...but honestly I don't do it because I'm just too blasted tired. So..on top of everything...I feel fat (even though I am far from it) and lazy.
My 4 year old is a good kid. She is...honestly. BUT...she tries my patience and pushes every single limit that there is. I feel like my brain is going to explode from screaming in the mornings just to get out of the door. No matter what I do...she just doesn't want to do what I ask.
It's me...I know it is. Daddy doesn't have these issues when he is around. (And of course having daddy tell me that it's partially my fault just makes me angry) The mother daughter relationship can be great...and it can be horrible. She will be fine all day long for other people...I walk in the door and it's instant melt down before I even speak two words.
So my question is how.in.the.heck do you get a 4 year old to obey? Because this mama is going to commit herself to an institution if something doesn't change...fast. (just kidding...but seriously..we do need some adjustments in our home now that daddy isn't around much) How...can I make my life any easier...or more organized.
Jan 9, 2012
Oct 9, 2011
And...she's here!
Abigail Rose Moses
Born October 3, 2011 at 7:09pm weighing 6 pounds 4 ounces; 20 inches long
Born October 3, 2011 at 7:09pm weighing 6 pounds 4 ounces; 20 inches long
Sep 19, 2011
37 weeks
How far along? 37 weeks 3 days
Total weight gain: 34 pounds...I actually lost a pound at my last appointment.
Maternity clothes? yes...and at this point...they are even getting small.
Sleep: Horrible. I toss and turn at exactly every hour and I get up at least twice to use the bathroom. Much different than my first pregnancy considering I could make it through the night without getting up.
Cravings: Still chocolate.
Best moment this week: Not sure what the best moment was this week. Probably just hearing her heart beat and knowing that very soon, she will be in my arms.
Movement: Constant and I think the poor girl is just as uncomfortable as I am. At this point, it's actually painful when she moves.
Gender: Girl....
Labor Signs: Sure...definately some braxton hicks.
Belly Button in or out? Depends on how she is sitting. Sometimes it's flat..other times it pokes out.
What I miss: My body. I am done sharing it and really would like it back to myself.
Weekly Wisdom: Sleep as much as possible.
Milestones: I'm officially full term!!
Total weight gain: 34 pounds...I actually lost a pound at my last appointment.
Maternity clothes? yes...and at this point...they are even getting small.
Sleep: Horrible. I toss and turn at exactly every hour and I get up at least twice to use the bathroom. Much different than my first pregnancy considering I could make it through the night without getting up.
Cravings: Still chocolate.
Best moment this week: Not sure what the best moment was this week. Probably just hearing her heart beat and knowing that very soon, she will be in my arms.
Movement: Constant and I think the poor girl is just as uncomfortable as I am. At this point, it's actually painful when she moves.
Gender: Girl....
Labor Signs: Sure...definately some braxton hicks.
Belly Button in or out? Depends on how she is sitting. Sometimes it's flat..other times it pokes out.
What I miss: My body. I am done sharing it and really would like it back to myself.
Weekly Wisdom: Sleep as much as possible.
Milestones: I'm officially full term!!
Favorite Moments: Spending the last few weeks with Isabella as an only child.
Technically...I was only 34 weeks pregnant in this shot. Sisterly love is such a wonderful thing!
Sep 13, 2011
First Day of Preschool
Well...my munchkin started preschool this year. Last Tuesday, the 6th, I took her in to meet her teacher and introduce her to her classroom. She immediatly asked the assistant to play with her, which warmed my heart needless to say. She got to color a fish and hang it on the bulletin board and was just full out loving it.
Thursday was her first official day and I tried to prepare her and tell her that she was going to go by herself and that's when she said "no mommy...you are coming with me." My heart broke and I prepared myself for a battle. Well...when it came time to go in, the teacher bent down to greet her and my little Bella ran into the teachers arms, gave her a big hug and said "Can I color a fishy?" The teacher said "your fish is hanging up, but there is something else for you to color at the table." With that, Bella ran into the room without ever looking back to see if I was coming with her. I walked away feeling so proud of her...knowng she was in great hands and that she was happy.
As I was walking away, I walked with one of the other moms who was left in tears (her daughter had followed Bella's lead and ran into the room as well to play without looking back.) I told her it was going to be okay. I guess one perk to not being a stay-at-home mom is that I'm used to leaving my child. So I encouraged her and told her I would see her in two hours.
When it came time to pick Bella up...she came out, walking in a straight line, holding onto the rope with all the other kids. When the teacher released her to me, I got the biggest hug I've ever gotten from her. It was, and is to this day, one of the best feelings I've ever had. She was so happy and had such a great time in school that she literally just kept rambling to tell me all about it.
So...from all of this I have learned that being a working mom does have it's perks and that I literally just made the best decision I could have made for my child. What's even better, is that my work is allowing me to leave every Tuesday afternoon early to go get her. So...I don't even get to miss out on that. God is so good to me...all.the.time!
Here are just two pictures that I took with my phone. She wanted nothing to do with pictures..but instead just wanted to get in that room to play.
Thursday was her first official day and I tried to prepare her and tell her that she was going to go by herself and that's when she said "no mommy...you are coming with me." My heart broke and I prepared myself for a battle. Well...when it came time to go in, the teacher bent down to greet her and my little Bella ran into the teachers arms, gave her a big hug and said "Can I color a fishy?" The teacher said "your fish is hanging up, but there is something else for you to color at the table." With that, Bella ran into the room without ever looking back to see if I was coming with her. I walked away feeling so proud of her...knowng she was in great hands and that she was happy.
As I was walking away, I walked with one of the other moms who was left in tears (her daughter had followed Bella's lead and ran into the room as well to play without looking back.) I told her it was going to be okay. I guess one perk to not being a stay-at-home mom is that I'm used to leaving my child. So I encouraged her and told her I would see her in two hours.
When it came time to pick Bella up...she came out, walking in a straight line, holding onto the rope with all the other kids. When the teacher released her to me, I got the biggest hug I've ever gotten from her. It was, and is to this day, one of the best feelings I've ever had. She was so happy and had such a great time in school that she literally just kept rambling to tell me all about it.
So...from all of this I have learned that being a working mom does have it's perks and that I literally just made the best decision I could have made for my child. What's even better, is that my work is allowing me to leave every Tuesday afternoon early to go get her. So...I don't even get to miss out on that. God is so good to me...all.the.time!
Aug 29, 2011
And...we are officially moving
Ok...so for the past two months our house has been on the market. As many of you may know...it's a great time to buy..not a great time to sell. Never the less...my hubby and I said that we would try to sell for a while and if it didn't sell by the time we had the baby (due in 5 weeks) then we would rent it out.
Well..this weekend we got a phone call. A dear friend knew of someone who needed a home to rent asap so they recommended our home. Within the blink of an eye our house is now rented. Since these people need a home asap...we have about 1 week to pack up all our stuff and get out. EEEKKKK!!!
Stressful....yes, but and that's a huge BUT we know this was God's timing. We were not looking for a renter and hadn't planned on it for a few more weeks. God is totally providing for our family so we do what we have to do. And, surprisingly...the house is getting packed quicker than I thought.
So...after work I'll be heading home to pack up as many boxes as possible until I just crash. But I'll leave you with a little picture of my family...before we add one more (which may be here earlier than we think after all this mayhem.)
Well..this weekend we got a phone call. A dear friend knew of someone who needed a home to rent asap so they recommended our home. Within the blink of an eye our house is now rented. Since these people need a home asap...we have about 1 week to pack up all our stuff and get out. EEEKKKK!!!
Stressful....yes, but and that's a huge BUT we know this was God's timing. We were not looking for a renter and hadn't planned on it for a few more weeks. God is totally providing for our family so we do what we have to do. And, surprisingly...the house is getting packed quicker than I thought.
So...after work I'll be heading home to pack up as many boxes as possible until I just crash. But I'll leave you with a little picture of my family...before we add one more (which may be here earlier than we think after all this mayhem.)
Jul 29, 2011
We made it!
So...here's the story...and I'm sorry if it's a bit long.
Since our first daughter was born, we have dreamed and even planned some on our next house. We quickly started outgrowing our 3 bedroom twin. We tripped over swings here...stepped on tubby toys there and overall, I just felt crammed. (granted...our house is very nice and is a GREAT home!)
When we found out baby number 2 was on her way...I felt the pressure even more. Nesting? Possibly. So...my husband and I started looking at some larger homes within Downingtown School District because that is idealy where we would like our kids to go to school. (Considering that's where we both went, we are a little biased) Well...we just couldn't find something that we liked and that was in our price range. So...diappointed we said we will just have to make due with what we have and never forget that God blessed us with this home for a reason.
About 2 months ago, we got a call from my parents saying that the woman who lived in the house next door could no longer afford the home. Her children had abandoned her (she is 72) and she just couldn't take care of the property. In addition, she was having a hard time getting up and down the steps to even get into the house. (The house is on a hill) So...my parents had asked her if she was interested in selling (as per a suggestion from her son) and she JUMPED at the opportunity, knowing she could get a small, first floor apartment somewhere and be really happy.
With that...things moved forward. We came to an agreement on price, drew up an agreement and started working on the process for a loan. Now..I will say that this house is in no where near good condition. In fact, when the appraiser from the mortgage company came out, they deemed the house "uninhabitable." Yep..they were basically saying that the house should be condemned. So we had a huge list of things that needed to be done in order for the mortgage company to give us the money. According to the appriasier, it should have taken about one month to do and $8,000.
But...we pushed forward and God provided many helpful hands. We were able to do all the jobs in half the time and for half the price. God is SO GOOD!!! The appraiser was very impressed when he came back and all he could say was "wow!"
So...as of yesterday, at 4:30pm my husband and I became the owners of another home. In Downingtown school district, with 1.5 acres of land, right next to my parents. I see the house finished and it will look nothing like it does now. My husband will have a detached garage for a workshop and we will have a two car attached garage for the cars. Our girls will be able to play in the back yard without me worried that they will run into the street. And the BEST part is that they will be able to see their grandparents whenever they want! The thought of watching my girls run next door just warms my heart.
Today...I am thankful to God for this opportunity. For giving us above all we ask or even think. I trust him completely with the sale of our Thorndale home and if it's His will for us to rent it, then so be it. I know that he will give us a sense of peace during this transition, especially with a new baby on the way and I trust that He will provide our every need.
Since our first daughter was born, we have dreamed and even planned some on our next house. We quickly started outgrowing our 3 bedroom twin. We tripped over swings here...stepped on tubby toys there and overall, I just felt crammed. (granted...our house is very nice and is a GREAT home!)
When we found out baby number 2 was on her way...I felt the pressure even more. Nesting? Possibly. So...my husband and I started looking at some larger homes within Downingtown School District because that is idealy where we would like our kids to go to school. (Considering that's where we both went, we are a little biased) Well...we just couldn't find something that we liked and that was in our price range. So...diappointed we said we will just have to make due with what we have and never forget that God blessed us with this home for a reason.
About 2 months ago, we got a call from my parents saying that the woman who lived in the house next door could no longer afford the home. Her children had abandoned her (she is 72) and she just couldn't take care of the property. In addition, she was having a hard time getting up and down the steps to even get into the house. (The house is on a hill) So...my parents had asked her if she was interested in selling (as per a suggestion from her son) and she JUMPED at the opportunity, knowing she could get a small, first floor apartment somewhere and be really happy.
With that...things moved forward. We came to an agreement on price, drew up an agreement and started working on the process for a loan. Now..I will say that this house is in no where near good condition. In fact, when the appraiser from the mortgage company came out, they deemed the house "uninhabitable." Yep..they were basically saying that the house should be condemned. So we had a huge list of things that needed to be done in order for the mortgage company to give us the money. According to the appriasier, it should have taken about one month to do and $8,000.
But...we pushed forward and God provided many helpful hands. We were able to do all the jobs in half the time and for half the price. God is SO GOOD!!! The appraiser was very impressed when he came back and all he could say was "wow!"
So...as of yesterday, at 4:30pm my husband and I became the owners of another home. In Downingtown school district, with 1.5 acres of land, right next to my parents. I see the house finished and it will look nothing like it does now. My husband will have a detached garage for a workshop and we will have a two car attached garage for the cars. Our girls will be able to play in the back yard without me worried that they will run into the street. And the BEST part is that they will be able to see their grandparents whenever they want! The thought of watching my girls run next door just warms my heart.
Today...I am thankful to God for this opportunity. For giving us above all we ask or even think. I trust him completely with the sale of our Thorndale home and if it's His will for us to rent it, then so be it. I know that he will give us a sense of peace during this transition, especially with a new baby on the way and I trust that He will provide our every need.
Jun 17, 2011
24 Weeks
How far along? 24 weeks
Total weight gain: Not sure...but my guess is around 20 pounds. I'll find out next tuesday.
Maternity clothes? Oh yes...but every once in a while I can get away with a pair of regular sweat pants and my hubby's t-shirts.
Sleep: Not too bad actually. My body pillow is my best friend (and a very good snuggler)
Cravings: Chocolate....especially chocolate milkshakes. Yum!
Best moment this week: Got to have another ultrasound of the baby yesterday, specifically of her heart. It was so cool to see all four chambers beating away! Pefection!
Movement: ALL THE TIME! Holy cow this baby is A.C.T.I.V.E.
Gender: GIRL!!!! Yep, God answered our prayers once again and we will have our little Abigail Rose.
Labor Signs: No..No....No!
Belly Button in or out? More flat now...not really in, but not really out either.
What I miss: Sandwiches, not struggling to pick things up off the floor, carrying my oldest daughter up to bed at night.
Weekly Wisdom: Take things one day at a time and if you clean a little each day, it's not so overwhelming.
Milestones: 6 months in!
Favorite Moments: Watching my belly contort with her movements.
Total weight gain: Not sure...but my guess is around 20 pounds. I'll find out next tuesday.
Maternity clothes? Oh yes...but every once in a while I can get away with a pair of regular sweat pants and my hubby's t-shirts.
Sleep: Not too bad actually. My body pillow is my best friend (and a very good snuggler)
Cravings: Chocolate....especially chocolate milkshakes. Yum!
Best moment this week: Got to have another ultrasound of the baby yesterday, specifically of her heart. It was so cool to see all four chambers beating away! Pefection!
Movement: ALL THE TIME! Holy cow this baby is A.C.T.I.V.E.
Gender: GIRL!!!! Yep, God answered our prayers once again and we will have our little Abigail Rose.
Labor Signs: No..No....No!
Belly Button in or out? More flat now...not really in, but not really out either.
What I miss: Sandwiches, not struggling to pick things up off the floor, carrying my oldest daughter up to bed at night.
Weekly Wisdom: Take things one day at a time and if you clean a little each day, it's not so overwhelming.
Milestones: 6 months in!
Favorite Moments: Watching my belly contort with her movements.
Jun 2, 2011
Blessings
I feel so incredibly blessed by my Jesus today and know without doubt that His hand is upon my life. To me..this song says it all.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mmgV6mPvb0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mmgV6mPvb0
Apr 28, 2011
16 Weeks 6 days
How far along? 16 weeks 6 days... (17 weeks tomorrow)
Total weight gain: 10 lbs. turns out I was wrong and to date I've gained the EXACT amount of weight that I did with Isabella. My doctor said it's a little more weight then the average person...but since I lost all the weight the last time..not to worry about what I gain.
Maternity clothes? You bet!!!
Sleep: Still bad....I wake up every hour to use the bathroom...get my body pillow....tend to my 2 year old....or just plain stare at the wall. I'm very tired.
Best moment this week: Hearing my little one's heart beat. I don't think I'll ever not love that sound.
Movement: Every once in a blue moon....but still nothing consistent. Surprises me actually.
Gender: Sticking with girl for now. My daughter insists she is having a little sister, no matter how many times I tell her she could have a brother. My doctor told me yesterday that the heart beat is in range for a girl if you go according to the old tales. We find out in 3 weeks!
Labor Signs: None!!!
Belly Button in or out? Still in....but slowly diappearing just like with Bella.
What I miss: Sleep....and a hoagie.
Weekly Wisdom: Don't have any this week really.
Milestones: A third of the way through my 2nd trimester!
Favorite Moments: Just looking at my growing belly, knowing there is a very little person in there.
Total weight gain: 10 lbs. turns out I was wrong and to date I've gained the EXACT amount of weight that I did with Isabella. My doctor said it's a little more weight then the average person...but since I lost all the weight the last time..not to worry about what I gain.
Maternity clothes? You bet!!!
Sleep: Still bad....I wake up every hour to use the bathroom...get my body pillow....tend to my 2 year old....or just plain stare at the wall. I'm very tired.
Cravings: My cravings have actually gone away for right now.
Movement: Every once in a blue moon....but still nothing consistent. Surprises me actually.
Gender: Sticking with girl for now. My daughter insists she is having a little sister, no matter how many times I tell her she could have a brother. My doctor told me yesterday that the heart beat is in range for a girl if you go according to the old tales. We find out in 3 weeks!
Labor Signs: None!!!
Belly Button in or out? Still in....but slowly diappearing just like with Bella.
What I miss: Sleep....and a hoagie.
Weekly Wisdom: Don't have any this week really.
Milestones: A third of the way through my 2nd trimester!
Favorite Moments: Just looking at my growing belly, knowing there is a very little person in there.
Apr 8, 2011
How can life possibly get any better?
Well...I never thought this day would come this quickly. I mean, people tell you that your kids grow fast, but my goodness this is too fast. I just enrolled my daughter in preschool. Yep.....a church in the area has a 2 1/2 year old class and my little princess makes the cut off. So....I filled out the form, wrote the check and it's in the mail.
I have to say...part of it is a little bit depressing. After all...I want my little baby to stay a baby. But fact of the matter is that she isn't a baby anymore. She sees the kids getting on the school bus every morning and says "I go to school too mommy?" So...when the opportunity came up, how could I deny my child a chance to get some education and make some friends? I couldn't.
Through this, there has been a lot of discussion with some friends and family. Is she really ready? Is it worth the money for her to just meet other kids? Who will take her? I came to the following conclusion for what is best for my daughter and my family. (I am a firm believer that you must do what is good for you and your child, regardless of what other people think you should do)
Although I am a full time working mommy, my Isabella is not in daycare. I am blessed to have a wonderful friend and two loving mothers who watch over her while my hubby and I are at work. That being said, she doesn't get much interaction with other kids other then an hour at church on Sunday mornings. We have enrolled her in soccer and swim class, but since they are both "parent and child" classes, she doesn't really get the opportunity to interact with the other kids. She tends to cling to us.
I want my child to be well rounded. She is amazing at playing by herself. I see her imagination run wild before my very eyes and it makes me happy to see that she is being creative and that she can entertain herself so easily. However, I do feel she needs to learn to work with others and I personally feel the more I push that off, the harder it will be to teach her. So...that was the first reason why we decided to send her.
Second....an extra year of having someone educate her can never hurt. I feel that going to school for a few hours twice a week will help her attention span and help her learn to follow instruction. Again, because she isn't in daycare, there is really no set schedule. So teaching her to be able to sit in a structured environment for two hours will be good.
Third...with a new baby coming in the fall, I feel this will give Bella something of her own. She will have something that the new baby can't do or that the new baby won't interfere with. I am hoping that it will help with any sort of jealousy issues (although I definately expect there to be jealousy of the new baby.)
Finally...I am looking forward to helping her find something to take to show and tell....packing her "healthy" snack.....hanging her artwork on the fridge......and hearing her sing the new song she learned. I'm excited to send her on her first nature walk or her first field trip to pick pumpkins. I'm looking forward to a christmas tree covered with homemade ornaments. I'm looking forward to baking cupcakes for her class to eat in celebration of her birthday.
I tell people who have babies that it only gets better with time and here I am telling it to myself. Watching her grow does get better everyday and today is no different. I'm sitting here with a heart that is overflowing with joy and I just don't see how it could possibly get any better. Then again...all I have to do is look down and see my growing belly and I know the joy is only just beginning.
I have to say...part of it is a little bit depressing. After all...I want my little baby to stay a baby. But fact of the matter is that she isn't a baby anymore. She sees the kids getting on the school bus every morning and says "I go to school too mommy?" So...when the opportunity came up, how could I deny my child a chance to get some education and make some friends? I couldn't.
Through this, there has been a lot of discussion with some friends and family. Is she really ready? Is it worth the money for her to just meet other kids? Who will take her? I came to the following conclusion for what is best for my daughter and my family. (I am a firm believer that you must do what is good for you and your child, regardless of what other people think you should do)
Although I am a full time working mommy, my Isabella is not in daycare. I am blessed to have a wonderful friend and two loving mothers who watch over her while my hubby and I are at work. That being said, she doesn't get much interaction with other kids other then an hour at church on Sunday mornings. We have enrolled her in soccer and swim class, but since they are both "parent and child" classes, she doesn't really get the opportunity to interact with the other kids. She tends to cling to us.
I want my child to be well rounded. She is amazing at playing by herself. I see her imagination run wild before my very eyes and it makes me happy to see that she is being creative and that she can entertain herself so easily. However, I do feel she needs to learn to work with others and I personally feel the more I push that off, the harder it will be to teach her. So...that was the first reason why we decided to send her.
Second....an extra year of having someone educate her can never hurt. I feel that going to school for a few hours twice a week will help her attention span and help her learn to follow instruction. Again, because she isn't in daycare, there is really no set schedule. So teaching her to be able to sit in a structured environment for two hours will be good.
Third...with a new baby coming in the fall, I feel this will give Bella something of her own. She will have something that the new baby can't do or that the new baby won't interfere with. I am hoping that it will help with any sort of jealousy issues (although I definately expect there to be jealousy of the new baby.)
Finally...I am looking forward to helping her find something to take to show and tell....packing her "healthy" snack.....hanging her artwork on the fridge......and hearing her sing the new song she learned. I'm excited to send her on her first nature walk or her first field trip to pick pumpkins. I'm looking forward to a christmas tree covered with homemade ornaments. I'm looking forward to baking cupcakes for her class to eat in celebration of her birthday.
I tell people who have babies that it only gets better with time and here I am telling it to myself. Watching her grow does get better everyday and today is no different. I'm sitting here with a heart that is overflowing with joy and I just don't see how it could possibly get any better. Then again...all I have to do is look down and see my growing belly and I know the joy is only just beginning.
Apr 4, 2011
Reunited a month later.....
Exactly one year ago my company changed locations. I work for a rather small company so when it came to packing and unpacking...well there was two of us to do the job. My co-worker (who happens to be one of my best friends) spent the weeks before the move packing the office as well as our storage facility. When it came to moving day...the movers came and each of us took a location. I had the new office directly people where to go and she took the new office...making sure everything got packed. The two of us worked great together. We were in and every single box was unpacked within two days. That's a miracle and a half.
Within just a few days of being at the new office, this wonderful girl named Taryn came into my office. She said she worked for the company down the hall. They too were a small company and she was often left alone to run things. She just came to introduce herself and welcome us to the building. I knew instantly we would become friends... and we did.
About a few weeks ago..I went down the hall to deliver some mail that we had gotten of theirs and she wasn't there. Her boss informed me that she had been in a skiing accident and had broken her back. I literally almost cried right there in front of him. I made sure to email her immediately to see if she needed anything. I was just heart broken. Above all else...I prayed. A broken back is very serious.
Well...after a month of being out...Taryn just walked in my office. I literally ran out of my office and gave her a huge hug. She told me all about what happened and oh.my.gosh has she been through a lot.
I'm so grateful to have her back but more grateful that she is walking and is recovering just fine..without any complications. She still has some pain so prayer is still needed, but my friend is back. That wonderful smiling face that I have grown so used to seeing everyday is finally back. I thank God for bringing such a sweet person in my life and for bringing her healing.
Within just a few days of being at the new office, this wonderful girl named Taryn came into my office. She said she worked for the company down the hall. They too were a small company and she was often left alone to run things. She just came to introduce herself and welcome us to the building. I knew instantly we would become friends... and we did.
About a few weeks ago..I went down the hall to deliver some mail that we had gotten of theirs and she wasn't there. Her boss informed me that she had been in a skiing accident and had broken her back. I literally almost cried right there in front of him. I made sure to email her immediately to see if she needed anything. I was just heart broken. Above all else...I prayed. A broken back is very serious.
Well...after a month of being out...Taryn just walked in my office. I literally ran out of my office and gave her a huge hug. She told me all about what happened and oh.my.gosh has she been through a lot.
I'm so grateful to have her back but more grateful that she is walking and is recovering just fine..without any complications. She still has some pain so prayer is still needed, but my friend is back. That wonderful smiling face that I have grown so used to seeing everyday is finally back. I thank God for bringing such a sweet person in my life and for bringing her healing.
Mar 30, 2011
13 weeks....Hello Second Trimester!
How far along? 13 weeks
Total weight gain: 5 lbs. (obviously feeling better and able to eat) Although...compared to my first pregnancy..doing MUCH better on weight. 5lbs for the first trimester with this one...15 with my daughter.
Maternity clothes? Same as before....using them for the most part...but still trying to hold on to what is left of my "non-maternity" wardrobe.
Sleep: horrible....which doesn't say anything good about the next 6 months.
Cravings: never got my donuts...but honestly right now..fresh fruit! I can not get enough fresh strawberries.
Best moment this week: Well...this week has definately had it's ups and downs. I have to say I actually have two best moments. One...we finally heard the baby's heartbeat....and I melted. The second doesn't come from the pregnancy...it comes from my 2 year old. I got a random kiss and an "I love you" just for the heck of it. Love that girl!!!
Movement: Sometimes...but nothing consistent.
Gender: I still think it's another girl...but we won't find out until the end of May/beginning of June.
Labor Signs: None!!!
Belly Button in or out? Still very much in although I swear my belly button is getting bigger. Like...I just may be able to fit a nickel in it.
What I miss: My breath. I remember being easily out of breath in the beginning of my pregnancy with Isabella and this one is no different in that regard.
Weekly Wisdom: The ailments that come along with pregnancy can really stink, but the outcome is definately worth it.
Milestones: I made it to the 2nd TRIMESTER!!!!!! Woooo Hooo!!!!
Favorite Moments: When I'm driving to work and I remember that I'm not alone. And when my mom rubs my ever growing belly and says "Hi baby...Gram loves you!"
(no pictures this week...again.....not much of a difference...really. It seems as though I've leveled out for now.)
Total weight gain: 5 lbs. (obviously feeling better and able to eat) Although...compared to my first pregnancy..doing MUCH better on weight. 5lbs for the first trimester with this one...15 with my daughter.
Maternity clothes? Same as before....using them for the most part...but still trying to hold on to what is left of my "non-maternity" wardrobe.
Sleep: horrible....which doesn't say anything good about the next 6 months.
Cravings: never got my donuts...but honestly right now..fresh fruit! I can not get enough fresh strawberries.
Best moment this week: Well...this week has definately had it's ups and downs. I have to say I actually have two best moments. One...we finally heard the baby's heartbeat....and I melted. The second doesn't come from the pregnancy...it comes from my 2 year old. I got a random kiss and an "I love you" just for the heck of it. Love that girl!!!
Movement: Sometimes...but nothing consistent.
Gender: I still think it's another girl...but we won't find out until the end of May/beginning of June.
Labor Signs: None!!!
Belly Button in or out? Still very much in although I swear my belly button is getting bigger. Like...I just may be able to fit a nickel in it.
What I miss: My breath. I remember being easily out of breath in the beginning of my pregnancy with Isabella and this one is no different in that regard.
Weekly Wisdom: The ailments that come along with pregnancy can really stink, but the outcome is definately worth it.
Milestones: I made it to the 2nd TRIMESTER!!!!!! Woooo Hooo!!!!
Favorite Moments: When I'm driving to work and I remember that I'm not alone. And when my mom rubs my ever growing belly and says "Hi baby...Gram loves you!"
(no pictures this week...again.....not much of a difference...really. It seems as though I've leveled out for now.)
Mar 25, 2011
Healing is In Your Hands...Christy Knockels
Today marks week 12 for me. Yep..officially 3 months and although I have felt significantly better lately...this morning has not been so great. Even though I'm not thru with morning sickness (and am starting to face the fact that I never will be done) I can only think about a wonderful song that I heard a few months back.
I was driving home from work one day when this song played on the radio. During the time, I was in the midst of the worst morning/noon/night sickness. I had NEVER in my entire life been that sick and honestly didn't know if I was going to make it through. This song spoke to me then and has brought me to tears ever since.
Although I was struggling withy my own issues, I know that there are people out there suffering much worse things than me. So to those of you reading...I hope you find some encouragement in this song...no matter where you are in life.
P.S. - I felt the baby kick last night....and for some reason...it made throwing up this morning just a little bit easier.
I was driving home from work one day when this song played on the radio. During the time, I was in the midst of the worst morning/noon/night sickness. I had NEVER in my entire life been that sick and honestly didn't know if I was going to make it through. This song spoke to me then and has brought me to tears ever since.
Although I was struggling withy my own issues, I know that there are people out there suffering much worse things than me. So to those of you reading...I hope you find some encouragement in this song...no matter where you are in life.
Mar 10, 2011
10 week update
How far along? 10 weeks (well tomorrow)
Total weight gain: Surprisingly nothing. I must have lost a bit of weight being sick because when I had my first appointment on March 1st, I was at my "pre-pregnancy" weight.
Cravings: Donuts from Duck Donuts and sadly...that's in the OBX. That and my grandmother's pizza bread (which I hope my sister will make one day)
Best moment this week: I took Bella to swim classs and on the way out we ran into some people we have not seen for a while. The woman immediately asked if that was a "baby bump." I was very happy to have someone notice that I was pregnant...and not just fat.
Movement: At times I think yes, but I think it's a bit too early for me to feel movement.
Gender: Well....I initially thought boy....but the other day I got a strong feeling it was a girl. We will have to wait and see.
Labor Signs: Thank God NO! That would not be good.
Belly Button in or out? Still very much in.
What I miss: Days without throwing up.
Total weight gain: Surprisingly nothing. I must have lost a bit of weight being sick because when I had my first appointment on March 1st, I was at my "pre-pregnancy" weight.
Maternity clothes? In them for the most part. Even though I have not gained any weight, my stomach suggests otherwise. I heard this happened with the second, but didn't think it would happen that fast. I can get away with a few things that are not maternity, but they are not as comfortable at the end of the day.
Sleep: Some nights are good, some nights are bad. Depends on the 2 year old more than the baby in my belly.Cravings: Donuts from Duck Donuts and sadly...that's in the OBX. That and my grandmother's pizza bread (which I hope my sister will make one day)
Best moment this week: I took Bella to swim classs and on the way out we ran into some people we have not seen for a while. The woman immediately asked if that was a "baby bump." I was very happy to have someone notice that I was pregnant...and not just fat.
Movement: At times I think yes, but I think it's a bit too early for me to feel movement.
Gender: Well....I initially thought boy....but the other day I got a strong feeling it was a girl. We will have to wait and see.
Labor Signs: Thank God NO! That would not be good.
Belly Button in or out? Still very much in.
What I miss: Days without throwing up.
Weekly Wisdom: Don't be afraid to ask for help.
Milestones: I'm not quite as sick as I was a few weeks ago.
Favorite Moments: When my hubby wants to "hold" the baby at night and simply holds my belly as we lay in bed.
This was taken at 8.5 weeks, but I have not changed much from then.
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